Thoughts right after we found out

First of all, thank you all SO MUCH for the sweet words and excitement on our announcement!! We are feeling extremely blessed. I guess that half way explains all of my MIA action these days on all social media. Do you know how hard it is to keep these kinds of things in?! Oh my LANTA!!

We are over the moon excited and are really trying to enjoy this journey. It's crazy how in just a few short months little Piper will be a big sis :)

I have a TON of posts I've been writing, but there are so many I'll just pick and choose which ones I really, really want to remember. I really can't wait to look back on these…

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(Written a few days after we found out on January 19th)

I don't even know how to type this.

I am out of words. Completely. 

On January 19th, in our parents lake house bathroom…our world changed.

It was one of the moments you have been imaging in your head for so long, that when it actually happens…you don't believe it. You want to, but you just can't. There is no way it could be true.

Let me rewind.

Previous to our little lake getaway things had been kind of weird. I have having this strange urge of…well, I cannot even describe it. Something was off. Different. I didn't crave my wine and that…that was freaking weird. I should have known something crazy was up. Truth be told, I have four (at least) unopened bottles of wine I didn't touch all of January. Unheard of.

Anyway, I ignored all signs that anything was up. I swear someone from above was hanging out with me through the months of Dec-Jan.

A few days before going to the lake, it was supposed to be my time of the month. It didn't happen but I didn't really think anything of it because there is usually a few days it could fall in between.

Well, fwd. two days later and it still hadn't come. I was cramping pretty good so I knew it was going to come eventually. Waiting..waiting..waiting for it's not so fun arrival.

And….nothing.

I really wasn't too worried because it has varied a few times so I figured it would come sooner or later. But being the curious and (anxious) person that I am, I bought myself a test…just to eliminate that option.

Gosh why is it so awkward to buy pregnancy tests? You'd think I was in high school or something.

I scanned the isles until I found the lovely female items. And that's when I saw it…."all pregnancy kits can be found at the front dest". ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

I almost walked out.

I am a big weeny. So I pulled up my big girl pants and walked to the front desk to see a young high school girl. Whew. I can handle that. Hanging next to her bright red hair, were the tests I was looking for. As she placed it in the bag she said, "These are the best. That's how I found out I was pregnant."

Well, count me in then girlfriend. I'll take it. Well, I'll take two. You know…just in case.

I awkwardly stuffed them into my purse and walked to the truck.

At this point Jeff kind of knew what was up but didn't think too much of it. Gosh what a world of not much thinking would be like!

Anyway, we got back to the lake house and I quickly and sneakily rushed to the bathroom.

So I opened the wrapper while the water was running (haha) and did my business. I turned it over and prayed a simple prayer about what was going to or not going to be on the other side of that stick. But in  the back of my mind…I just knew it'd be one little line staring back at me.

And there it was. Helllllo blue cross. Wait, what?!

I turned it over, put my hands over my mouth and literally thought "holy shit". And then I smiled and started shaking. "Holy….shit" Is this real life?

I don't like to get my hopes up. Heck, I still don't want to get my hopes up. I'm scared shitless. So I had to take the second one…

I watched this time.

Only one dark line….my stomach sunk.

But only for a second because then the BRIGHT blue cross flashed across the screen.

Girl, you are PREGNANT!!!!!!!!

I'm still thinking….is this really happening to me? There is not way. But 4 tests later (update: 5 tests later update…7 tests later…8 tests later) with two blue crosses and four pregnants and one yes and a few others….I'd say it is.

THANK YOU LORD FOR THIS INCREDIBLE MIRACLE. I give all the glory to YOU!