healthy is hard

On June 3rd I made a leap that I have made a million times before. I made a commitment to myself that I would change my bad habits and work on transitioning them into good habits.

If you have followed me since I started this blog, you would know I have said this about three or four times. I have stated that I was "over" feeling tired all of the time and was ready to get in shape and feel better.

And over and over and over again I have started it, only to fail a week or so later. Only to realize how lazy I was and that I could not do it. My heart never really wanted it bad enough I guess.

So on June 3rd I convinced myself once again that I needed to seriously make some changes. I had no more excuses of being tired from work and the daily stresses I had before.

I wasn't going to force myself to eat 100% clean. I wasn't going to make myself work out every day for an hour. I wasn't going to set my goals clear out of sight just to let myself fail once again.

I made a goal to myself to start with thirty days of some transitions. I knew I wasn't going to be perfect and I didn't even put that kind of pressure on myself. I just wanted to change my way of thinking about health. So I started with drinking boat loads of water and eating as clean as I knew how.

The weekends were just free for all. I tried to do something fun on the weekends for exercise and not think too hard about it. I just wanted to feel good. Good in all aspects. Feel good on the outside, inside, between sides, all over just....good.

It has taken me a concsious effort to keep myself going. I have wanted to just lay on the couch so many freaking times and skip "one day". But I KNOW "one day" leads in one week, one month, one year. I know how that goes.

So as I am going into the third week, I feel good about the small little mind changes I have made. Even though I do pee about 500 times a day, I am proud of knowing I have made some small accomplishment. But I will also say it's been really hard for me. But for once....I am overcoming hard.

I set up a facebook page for when I reach 30 days of my "transition" I will post. I have been writing on it every since I started. This is what has me going now. Knowing that I will feel like I reached some type of goal I actually worked my buns off for.

And hopefully my buns will actually have some proof to them. :)

Cheers to that. Whoopity whoop whoop!