hot and bothered

So this post is just a little spur of the moment on something I've been thinking about the past few weeks. It all has to do with being skinny, healthy, and what the difference is.

I'll tell you skinny and healthy are not the same thing. They can go together, but they are definitely not the same thing. That isn't what I've been thinking the past few weeks though.

What I have been thinking about is how people perceive it. What made these thoughts come visit is when I was talking with others about working out and eating right so I wouldn't feel so flipping tired all.of.the.time. It was getting old and I felt old.

I am telling you they looked at me with the "um, seriously" look and the words "uhhhh, ok" and "what are you doing it for?" came into play. No, to get some energy IN. Just because I am small, does not mean I am healthy. And the last few months after our wedding, I have been everything but healthy. It was getting a little ridiculous.

Even though my figure may have made it look like I was healthy, my insides were so po'ed about how they were being treated. I felt tired about 24 hours of the day. I had no energy to do anything, and this resulted in being a lazy teacher. I was short fused and just not...me. Well, not the good me at least. I got to a point where I said no longer will I feel this way. I can't do it.

And I am still not the healthiest person out there. Not by any means. But I've been trying the best I can and I already feel so much better. For the first time probably ever, I got something "healthy" out on our date night. I am trying. Key word, trying.

So when I get the "you are a freak" looks when I tell someone I'm working out and trying eating better, it's a bit...what's the word...frustrating. Maybe I just don't understand. That is definitely possible, but it just bothers me.

End rant here.

On a positive note....My Erin Condren planner (yes, I caved) arrives soon and so does my new camera strap. Ow owwwww.