There comes a time when you just realize what matters and what really doesn’t. There were some dark dark days in my life when I was putting things that only hurt me in front of all the things that truly mattered the most. I let one person not only destroy my capabilty to be happy, but also my capabilty to love myself. I sometimes forget how much my life had changed because of this person. Sometimes I just can’t fathom how I let myself be in such a horrible and abusive situation. I wonder sometimes why I never thought more of myself. I wonder why I never realized what the important things really were then. Maybe it was because I was young, maybe that’s just my excuse. Maybe it was because I was suppose to go through that to cherish what I have now with a wonderful and caring man. My fiance.
I am so thankful for that situation now, no matter how bad it crushed me and left me weak and vulnerable for years. I am so thankful this awful situation showed me the value of love from people who truly truly want the best for me. I am so thankful that it led me to true love with someone I know will be supportive and love me until the die, through thick and thin. I regret the days where I would not want to see me family because I was scared someone was going to cheat on me if I went with them. I regret the things I said to my family when they were just trying to help me. They wanted to get me out of the deep dark hole I was in, but to me I wasn’t in one. They saved me from my own self. I wish I could describe and write how much family means to me, but I truly cannot put it into words. The love I have for each and every one of my family members is a true blessing. To me, family is absolutely EVERYTHING. I know that if all else fails, I will have them. The treasures of my life. The meaning to my life. I have all I need, and it is simply love.
The love of those who have supported me since day one, even when I did not deserve their love at imes. I know we all make mistakes, but I can’t help but hate myself for the situations I have put the people I love the very most through. For the past four years I have been putting the things first in my life that are suppose to be first. I put my family above all, no matter what. My faith helps me grow each day so I can be the type of person I always known I could be. I want to show others that to be happy we simply need to push the negatively in our lives out. I am so thankful and blessed to have learned so greatly from mistakes and given the opportunity to give others each and every ounce of love in my heart. I am so blessed God has allowed me to have these amazing people in my life. Without them, who knows where I would be. They are the bomb.com, Family Over Everything. I can never say it enough J
If you are a KU fan I recommend this video. F.O.E stands for Family Over Everything. Check it out!
Okay, serious Molly is over now J
6 comments:
aww so cute molly :) great pictures! xo
Aw such a sweet post and oh so true; family will always be there. It sucks that we don't usually realize how great they are until we start to grow up.
(and I read your engagement story and love it! As a *huge* NYC lover myself, I get so giddy when I read engagement stories that happen there haha I've hinted that to my bf many times... Well not so much hinted as flat out told him I would love for it to happen there lol)
Aww, I just LOVE this post!! First off, it's so good to hear that you are out of the bad relationship and are now in a fabulous one, and know in your heart that you're a good person through it all. Secondly, aren't families just THE best?? I love mine to pieces. Thirdly, LOOOVE all of the KU attire in these picture, srrsly!! The FOE Rap is rockin' my life lately.
yay! great post. like kelly said, glad to see you're out of a bad relationship and now in a good one (gives the rest of us single gals hope!) my first serious relationship was a real wedge between my family and me, and after that relationship ended, i vowed to myself never to date someone who interfered with my number one priority (family) again. so far, so good :)
Aw I love this post! All that's important is that you realize what matters now. Sounds like you've come a long way and should be really proud of yourself!
It is good that you can be honest about your mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes the important thing is that you realized the truth in the end. It is so awesome that you have such a supportive family.
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