Bumpdate - Week 13

(I'm actually 14 weeks yesterday , but I had to catch up from last week since it's now the ONLY picture I now have of the "bump dates")

Week 13, ahhhh the week I had been dying to get to. The week I just knew I'd feel a tiny tad less worried. Well, I'm still worried but I do feel better knowing that little sweet pea is still a growing, growing, and growing some more. Without the fetal doppler my sister-in-law let me borrow, pretty sure I'd still be worried all of the time. Is it just me or does everyone worry like I do?

I had "bumpdates" for all the previous weeks starting from week 4, but sadly my camera card decided to stop working and now they are all gone, gone, gone. 

So here we go…starting so fresh and clean at week 13. 

Excuse the dirty chalkboard…I tend to make a lot of mistakes ;)

So what has been going on this week? On Tuesday, I went to my doctor's appointment I scheduled in Cali after having some very scary spotting go down. Thank the Lord all looked good and baby's heart was beating away at 158 bpm! He/she kept moving while she was checking the heart beat and I have got to say that was one of the best feelings ever. Now I just can't wait to see the little one again on the sonogram in just a few short weeks (aka GENDER SONOGRAM!!!)

How far along? 13 weeks. Some say 2nd trimester and some say not, so we will go with my app and say 2nd trimester!

Baby Size: Peach

Maternity Clothes: None, but I am about to hit up some stores soon because my jeans are just not feeling this whole pregnant thang these days. Come to me maxi dresses and skirts! Work pants, you can retire.

Movement? Not yet, other than while listening on the doppler and hearing it move around. So dang cool.

Food cravings/adversions? Sweets are what's for dinner I swear. I don't know what it is but lately I have just wanted anything sweet. It's the weirdest thing because I've never ever wanted it that bad and maybe it's all in my head…but oh my lanta it's getting a little out of hand. I still am not feeling anything I make for dinner. I'll eat it, but everything sounds no bueno.

Nausea, vomiting, or sickness? Negative. Thankful for that!!

What I miss: Just my energy. Wait, I forgot what that was….

Symptoms?  Other than the spotting and extreme exhaustion…not too much of anything. I've had a few "growing" pains (I think that's what they are) but nothing too bad. 

Best moment this week? Announcing Baby S's arrival on good ol' social media. It's nice to finally get it OUT and be able to talk about the precious little one that has been cooking away. 

Workouts: Yeah….about that. This is the first week I have an excuse though, doc said to lay low and I'm obliging ;) I am going to start walking everyday though because I know baby and I need some action. Now if only someone could teach me how to not be scared I'm going to hurt little one while exercising that'd be great!

Gender:  I've thought girl all along until last week's sonogram we took while in California. I am still pretty certain on the girl feeling, but now I'm kind of up in the air. We shall see soon! We find out April 16th! Yippee!

Daddy-isms of The Week: Throughout our entire trip Jeff would continue to go up to people and show them the sonogram that is the background on his phone like a proud daddy. I loved/love hearing him talk to people about our news.

Sleep? Still pretty good! Bought a bump nest pillow and it is the BOMB! I don't think I probably need it yet, but I'm an awful sleeper anyway and it is seriously amazing.

What I'm looking forward to? GENDER SONOGRAM! C'mon April 16th! We also have an appointment scheduled for April 9th to check baby out. I love love hearing his or her little heartbeat. 

Wisdom or other thoughts? Once again, God is showing me He is guiding my through this pregnancy hand in hand. I've had a few scares and He has showed me that he is there and everything is going be alright. I could never in a million years thank Him enough for our little miracle.

And fetal dopplers are the best anxiety relief I'm pretty sure I could get during pregnancy. I listen to the little heartbeat every day and it makes me just as happy and excited every single time. Best invention ever!! And thank you Ashley for letting me borrow it :)

Thoughts right after we found out

First of all, thank you all SO MUCH for the sweet words and excitement on our announcement!! We are feeling extremely blessed. I guess that half way explains all of my MIA action these days on all social media. Do you know how hard it is to keep these kinds of things in?! Oh my LANTA!!

We are over the moon excited and are really trying to enjoy this journey. It's crazy how in just a few short months little Piper will be a big sis :)

I have a TON of posts I've been writing, but there are so many I'll just pick and choose which ones I really, really want to remember. I really can't wait to look back on these…

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(Written a few days after we found out on January 19th)

I don't even know how to type this.

I am out of words. Completely. 

On January 19th, in our parents lake house bathroom…our world changed.

It was one of the moments you have been imaging in your head for so long, that when it actually happens…you don't believe it. You want to, but you just can't. There is no way it could be true.

Let me rewind.

Previous to our little lake getaway things had been kind of weird. I have having this strange urge of…well, I cannot even describe it. Something was off. Different. I didn't crave my wine and that…that was freaking weird. I should have known something crazy was up. Truth be told, I have four (at least) unopened bottles of wine I didn't touch all of January. Unheard of.

Anyway, I ignored all signs that anything was up. I swear someone from above was hanging out with me through the months of Dec-Jan.

A few days before going to the lake, it was supposed to be my time of the month. It didn't happen but I didn't really think anything of it because there is usually a few days it could fall in between.

Well, fwd. two days later and it still hadn't come. I was cramping pretty good so I knew it was going to come eventually. Waiting..waiting..waiting for it's not so fun arrival.

And….nothing.

I really wasn't too worried because it has varied a few times so I figured it would come sooner or later. But being the curious and (anxious) person that I am, I bought myself a test…just to eliminate that option.

Gosh why is it so awkward to buy pregnancy tests? You'd think I was in high school or something.

I scanned the isles until I found the lovely female items. And that's when I saw it…."all pregnancy kits can be found at the front dest". ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

I almost walked out.

I am a big weeny. So I pulled up my big girl pants and walked to the front desk to see a young high school girl. Whew. I can handle that. Hanging next to her bright red hair, were the tests I was looking for. As she placed it in the bag she said, "These are the best. That's how I found out I was pregnant."

Well, count me in then girlfriend. I'll take it. Well, I'll take two. You know…just in case.

I awkwardly stuffed them into my purse and walked to the truck.

At this point Jeff kind of knew what was up but didn't think too much of it. Gosh what a world of not much thinking would be like!

Anyway, we got back to the lake house and I quickly and sneakily rushed to the bathroom.

So I opened the wrapper while the water was running (haha) and did my business. I turned it over and prayed a simple prayer about what was going to or not going to be on the other side of that stick. But in  the back of my mind…I just knew it'd be one little line staring back at me.

And there it was. Helllllo blue cross. Wait, what?!

I turned it over, put my hands over my mouth and literally thought "holy shit". And then I smiled and started shaking. "Holy….shit" Is this real life?

I don't like to get my hopes up. Heck, I still don't want to get my hopes up. I'm scared shitless. So I had to take the second one…

I watched this time.

Only one dark line….my stomach sunk.

But only for a second because then the BRIGHT blue cross flashed across the screen.

Girl, you are PREGNANT!!!!!!!!

I'm still thinking….is this really happening to me? There is not way. But 4 tests later (update: 5 tests later update…7 tests later…8 tests later) with two blue crosses and four pregnants and one yes and a few others….I'd say it is.

THANK YOU LORD FOR THIS INCREDIBLE MIRACLE. I give all the glory to YOU!

And then there were three (plus one furry human)

After 9 weeks (which is eternity, btw) of keeping my mouth shut from most of the world, we can FINALLY share that our little family will be growing by one this September!!

Can you tell how excited Piper is about this news? haha!

We are so so so thrilled to finally be able to share with everyone else the excitement we have been feeling for so long.

It's crazy how you dream and pray for something for so long and the moment it comes true is the most surreal in the world.

I'd swear it wasn't true but seeing our little sweet pea and hearing his or her heartbeat confirmed it was in fact, real life. We couldn't be more thankful or blessed to call this little miracle ours. God is so, so good!

More details to come...

Calling all sunshine….

If I recall correctly, it is March 2nd…..right?

As I am looking out my window, all I see is white white white. And all I feel is cold cold cold. Feels like -14 to be exact. Little groundhog, we cannot be friends! 

However, if I get out of school tomorrow…I have never loved the white and cold so much! Crossing my fingers for another snow day. We can only hope!

I finally have California in my sights now so I can finally dream of sunshine, laying out at the pool, and laying out at the pool some more. It is SERIOUSLY bad for my bank account though because all I can do is sit inside and hibernate and look at spring/summer clothes.

This is sold out and I may cry. Dottie Couture

Shop Hopes

Okay, now you can come SPRING. I am ready for you!!

Goodbye to one social media, Hello to another

Well, it happened again. I deleted Facebook. Gosh why does that always feel so good?

Maybe that means I'll actually blog again?

I'm not getting my hopes up :)

Truth be told, I just haven't had much to say.

I would post pictures of what I've been up to via instagram, etc. but 98.5% of them are of Piper. And 99% of those pictures are most likely of her sleeping. I obviously like variety! What is cuter than a sleeping little pup?! Ah, lucky day. I found a few!

I guess there is a little more than sleepy Pipes. We had three glorious snow days, went on a mini vaca to the lake, had a special Baptism, went to a KU game, and finished up with an awesome Lady A/Kip Moore/Kacey Musgraves concert!

I've missed blogging, but I just haven't felt it lately. Well, for quite some time actually. Not sure why…just wasn't/hasn't.

I do feel like I've been living in my own little bubble though and I'm not really liking that. I always blame it on work but I have a feeling it's maybe me just being old and lame these days? Haha! I kid, I kid. I think?

I've always been trying to think of another blog name and not feeling my current one anymore. Just kinda over it. I want a fresh start but maybe have to wait another five years to think of a good one that fits me and the blog. Process Pending…

I hope everyone is doing well! I've still been reading a lot of blogs, just horrible at responding. I really want to make a comeback. I miss coming back here to see what kind of crazy hooligans I was up to.

Happy President's Day!

I lift my life up

This song has been weighing on my heart for quite some time now.

The first time I heard it, it was almost like I had been slapped in my face. Steamy tears were streaking down my cheeks and I just knew that it was something I really needed at that very moment. Almost like He was speaking right through me.

I've done a lot of "trying to control" different situations in my day. Still do. Thinking my way, is the best way. Or worrying constantly about where the future will take us and the "what ifs" that may occur.

And then I wonder why I can't carry that type of weight on my own. It's because I'm not supposed to. So I'm learning to give away my control of thinking I know what's best. Trying, being the key word.  Truth is, it's one of the hardest things I have ever tried to do. But I'm learning….and that's all I can ask for.

Here are a little bit of the lyrics that hit me right in the soul….

You brought me this far, so why should I question you now?
You have provided, so why would I start to doubt?
I've never been stranded, abandoned, or left here to fight alone.
Hope your leaving me home, so I'm giving you control.

I lift, my life, lift my life up.
I give it all in surrender.
I lift my heart, lift my heart up.
You can have it forever.

All my dreams, all my plans
Lord I leave it in your hands.

I lift, my life, lift my life up
Have your way in me.
Have your way in me.

Happy Sunday everybody!

One year anniversary pictures

Back (waaaaay back) in August Jeff and I took some one-year anniversary pictures.

It wasn't supposed to turn out that way, but I'm glad it did. I guess procrastination does have some perks?

Pictures are a funny thing. You see those last four pictures? Well I have no idea how they turned out so incredibly awesome. There were SWARMS. And I mean…a freaking attack going on, of mosquitoes. I had welts all over my body. It seriously looked like I had the chicken pox on crack or something.

And then I see those pictures. They turned out pretty amazing and it's just funny to think I was getting eaten alive during them. We were cracking up the whole time because we were whacking the bugs off of each other.

Sometimes the story behind the pictures is just as great as the picture itself.

And note to self, don't go into a field/forrest after it rained. You may or may not get out alive.